terça-feira, 24 de janeiro de 2012
We have been apart for three years now and I still relive that night every once in a while. The blink of an eye was enough to ignite the inevitable. I had thought of several shallow excuses that could work. Even though you were not convinced you would relinquish. No counter-answer. I was taking what I considered to be the right decision. Had I known what would follow, I might have done things differently.
There was a solid reason, though. One I never wanted you to know however, it turns out I am weaker than I have thought. There is something waning my heart besides leaving you behind. I have tried to spare you from witnessing such misery. It is a well known fact that a decaying smile is a contagious disease. Having thought about it I have decided that I’d rather have your hatred than your suffering.
I have planned everything and everything had gone according to the plan. So why do I feel this constant sting punching my heart? I can see clearly now how my mishandling of the situation has doomed me. I just wish I was not alone...
In spite of the guilt that is burned into my very being, that will haunt my every breath, I might have tried to survive, if only to see you again. But my best efforts only delayed the inevitable. I am here and you are not, that’s all I can think of.
Nevertheless all this moaning is pointless. I have made a decision that I was sure, even in that time, would affect my whole life. And here I sit. Gazing at the moon. It has always reminded me of you for no specific reason. A light in the dark, maybe. I don’t know if any of these words make any sense to you...
All I knew was that with you I’d want someone to save me... Does it make any sense to you?
A few pictures, two tickets from a trip we took a while ago. A handful of memories, some still seem clear. You were the best thing I had ever given up... Has it made any sense yet?
I was always a word cherisher. Never came out of my mouth one I didn’t mean to say. I love you ‘til the end... I hope it makes sense...
sexta-feira, 13 de janeiro de 2012
Não há nada no mundo como te olhar nos olhos.
Estes que me fascinam quando fitam,
Deleitam quando procuram
E morrem quando transbordam.
Ah! Teus olhos nos meus!
É como beber do céu de anil.
Faz definir amor em cor.
Quase verde, quase mel, quase meu.
Como é gostoso me perder
Ao mergulhar no teu olhar.
Inspiração de bem querer!
Expiração de apaixonar!
Quando me falam esses olhos, de fascínios fictícios,
Os decifro e os decoro, pois aprendi que eles sobram
Onde as palavras economizam...
Pois o coração guarda segredos para serem ditos em silêncio.
Gosto quando brilham ao olhar!
Como guardando a luz do luar
Por caminhada em noite fria,
Com a boca dizendo "adeus" e teu olhar dizendo "fica"...
E mesmo quando resisto,
Sou presa desse olhar
Que me guarda...alegra e fascina...
Que me decifra por inteiro.